Sorry I haven’t posted lately…there’s been a lot of turbulence in my life. Not to mention school starting this week!
There’s been so much family drama, I’m trying my best not to let it interfere with my schoolwork but it’s difficult to focus when these thoughts about your future keep crawling into your head. I know that I have a lot to be thankful for, especially since I’m days away from publishing my very first e-book, Go to Class Naked.
The last few years of my life has been insane. I have been through two spinal surgeries and have landed right smack dab in the middle of my parents’ nasty divorce. Through it all I have triumped. Not because I am smarter or stronger than anyone else, but because these events have made me a fighter.
College is usually a place where people come into their own. Find their identity. Find their niche. Figure out who they belong with, whether it be in a sorority or the chess club or the love of their life.
I have always had a big family on both sides and while I used to find it irritating to try to keep up with so many aunts, uncles, cousins, and nieces I am now so grateful that I have them to support me.
Recently my father and I broke contact. He has become a different person than the person I grew up with and I can no longer stand to be around someone so cold and calculating. It hurts that he won’t be there to see me graduate from college, I guess someone else will have to walk me down the aisle someday. Through all this I am just becoming a stronger person and this makes me want to perservere in life even more. I am in a dark place and it hurts to know in your heart that your own father does not care about you, but I must remember that not all stories have a fairy tale ending.
My point here is that no matter who you are and what your college situation is, it will always bring changes. These might be changes in yourself, your friends, your family, or your goals in life. It may be all of the above.
The most important thing to remember is that life goes on. Relationships change, people grow apart. The person you are when you walk through those double doors your first day of college is not the same person throwing their ugly cap up on graduation day.
Embrace these college years and these changes, because these are the things that make us who we are.
We are nothing more than the sum of our memories and experiences- Michael Scott (The Sorceress)